It’s a strange experience watching myself on video. I’m left wondering: hmm who is this guy? I sort of recognise him and what he says is all very familiar… but there’s something a bit odd about him. Part of it is that I look more confident on the outside than I feel on the inside.
I remember a friend once pointing out that each of us is “myself” to just one person; we’re “other” to everyone else. She asked, provocatively: “what if we go with the majority view?”
Seeing yourself as “the other” is quite sobering and somehow comforting… in the same way that looking up at the stars and sensing your tininess in the great scheme of things is comforting.